The other day I literally collapsed from exhaustion. I was in bed asleep by 10 pm, I hadn't done many of the things on my to-do list and when I woke up the next morning, I was still feeling tired . . . Maybe it was because I was on my period? Maybe it's because I usually don't see the bed before 12:30 am? Maybe it's because I see the early side of 6 am almost every morning? Go to work not just full-time, but all the time? Try to be mom when I'm home? Cook? Driver? Maid? Try to be helpful daughter/translator/liaison? Try to be great girlfriend to HSBF when he's in town? Try to be sympathetic sister? And BFF to my friends, for whom I have soooo little precious time? These are only some of the hats I (and YOU) wear.
What is it about us as mothers that make us feel the need to "max" it out? What is it about Korean mothers that have to do everything a "certain" way? My sister works about 65 hours a week . . . and still manages to clean her floors by. hand. My mom used to work 2 jobs, do all the laundry, keep a house of 4 children clean and STILL managed to make 8 dishes of ban chan and meat/fish for dinner. And let's not forget about her garden that sustained our family . . . and still does.
How about Glennia? And Nina? Kristen? And Stephania? (These women are just bloggin' to vent - they're maxing it out and beyond . . . )
When I'm at work, I feel terrible for not being at home. When I'm at home, I feel guilty if I take 30 minutes out to check my email, read FB or watch "House" online or have a real-live conversation with my friends.
Is it the guilt that drives us? Is it some kind of estrogen-related need to be busy ALL the time? Is it the kimchi?
-Angie in Texas would like both more sleep and less guilt, but would go for more sleep at this point.